xanga private byes escaped_lyts
CinderellaTheEssense
read my profile
sign my guestbook

Visit CinderellaTheEssense's Xanga Site!

Name: Neefesha
State: Michigan
Metro: Detroit
Birthday: 4/12/1986
Gender: Female


Interests: Poetry, Life, music, and most of all to explain what your story is.
Occupation: Student


Message: message me
AIM: Jden289
Yahoo: Neefesha


Member Since: 11/24/2004

SubscriptionsSites I Read
Alphaflomegaman
euphoria_lyts
Hen_nd_Hydro
ixheart_skwishyLayouts
ridiculouslygreatlays_bycam
Part__II
xghettoricex
fallinglayouts
xxlayouts_n_morexx
Dr8ct0pu8
rbgmindblender
vicpreview4
whoiamiswhatiwrite
MadeBy_poisonxkisses___layout
MasterMind_2000
Original_Dubbs
Ad_Infintum
FubuDragon05
suaveturo
IVIZ
J_T_K_O
willgotuwet
HomerSapien924
Xtina_Lynn
IneffableStateOfBeing
bcott
genamus
real_layoutz
furyage
The_Message
Tha_Fish_Is_Dead_Playa
boyblu
mitchboy770
iNeRGi
nano_celoso
SC_Shawty
YoungGentleman
poeticbluphi4life
TheNubianButy
Noir_Pride_08
jbsm86
yungkel03
A__MUSIC__X
crazy_layouts
Kasere

Blogrings
black college students
previous - random - next

perfect individuality is impossible
previous - random - next

 All I do is fawking bitch about my life 
previous - random - next

wayne state warriors
previous - random - next

wHeRe ThE BLACK PEOPLE AT?
previous - random - next

 Ambitionz Az a Writah 
previous - random - next

! i Young Def Poets i !
previous - random - next


Posting Calendar

|<< oldest | newest >>|
view all weblog archives

Get Involved!

Suggest a link

Recommend to friend

Create a site


Wednesday, November 08, 2006

 

 

 
ACTION....
 
 
THE
 
CLOCK
 
HAS
 
 
BEEN
 
SET
 
BACK
 
(MY THOUGHTS)
TIME HAS OFFICALLY BEEN SET BACK!!!
FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO DIDN'T KNOW...AFFIRMATIVE ACTION HAS BEEN BANNED!!! YES, I SAID BANNED. SO "ALL" OF US "MINORITIES" AND "WOMEN" WILL HAVE TO WORK TRIPLE THE AMOUNT TO EVEN BE CONSIDERED, EMPLOYMENT, EDUCATION, HEALTH. THIS IS BEYOND ME. I REALLY FEEL LIKE SITTING AT THIS COMPUTER CRYING. WE DON'T REALIZE HOW OUR LIVES CAN CHANGE IN THE MATTER OF SECONDS, HOURS, DAYS. FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO VOTED YES, YOU CAN ALL KISS MY ASS!!!!!! SO ANY TIME IN YOUR LIFE YOU FEEL MISTREATED OR NOT TREATED EQUALLY BY SOMEONE, JUST THINK ABOUT WHAT MINORITIES, AND WOMEN HAVE TO GO THROUGH ON A DAILY BASIS. THIS IS AN OUTRAGE. PEOPLE THINK THAT EVERY ONE WILL BE TREATED EQUALLY NOW. BULLSHIT NO ONE WILL BUT WHITES AND MEN. ITS A SHAME. THE ONLY WAY THINGS IN OUR FUCKED UP SOCIETY AND WORLD WILL CHANGE WILL BE THE DAY, "RACE & GENDER" BE TAKEN OFF ALL APPLICATIONS (EMPLOYMENT, SCHOOL, ETC). ... UNTIL THAT DAY COMES... WE'LL STRUGGLE HARDER THAN EVER BEFORE.

BUT I BEG YOU DO NOT GIVE UP, DON'T GIVE INTO THE PRESSURE AND BECOME INRAGED BY SOMETHING LIKE THIS. THATS WHAT THEY WANT US TO DO. CONTINUE TO SPEAK OUT "HAVE A VOICE, DON'T LET SOMEONE ELSE SPEAK FOR YOU"


Monday, October 30, 2006

 Okay Xanga so what's new??? Some of nothing with me... Schools sucks, life suck, shit everything sucks. but guess what I'm here God woke me up to another day to do something that I didn't do yesterday. What is is I"m not sure. But I'm here.IMG_0625zzzZZ

I mean some of you will be mad and other will just say shit happens. I know it does but I'm failing right now. Yeah me that couldn't be but I am I still have some time to pick my shit up and get it together.

MOVING AGAIN... Damn We're moving again or should I say they're cuz i'm not sure if I want to go with them or not my little brother is getting on my last damn nerves I can't take his bad think he knows everything ass. Then at first it was just four kids now its seven. Damn thats to many. My sisters 4 then she has my two cousins and my little brother. What the fuck will happen next.

CAR PROBLEMS... Damn can i ever some on xanga without having car problems... I think my transmission is about to go it. This past weekend it kept overheating. So damn what will happen next.

JOB CHANGE... Damn I need one of them asap. So if anyone from MICHIGAN and know someone who's hiring hit me up and let me know. A sistah needs a new job...

ME!!!!! Nothing but constant emotional roller-coasters. I can't function nowa days. I'm constantly crying. Damn I hate crying. I've completely neglected my diary once again. I don't know what's gotten into me. ANGER AND FRUSTRATION!!!!! But i'm holding on I haven't hit rock bottom just yet and don't plan on itIMG_0536

MENTORING...... Yeah I have two little girls that I mentor now. I'm loving it so far. Well i've on met with them one time. but from t he looks of things its going to be really fun. Weird huh, i hate being at my house with all them damn kids, so i go get a mentoring job mentoring someone elses... yeah i know I'm slightly crazy. But at least i'm doing something that makes me smile now. 


Monday, September 11, 2006

Yeah Yeah I know. Xanga is offically not put to use any more. Why have we all just forgot about our xanga pages. I guess thats what myspace and face book will do to us. lol

On the bright side of things life is good. I mean there's drama constantly in my family. theres still things about myself that i continue to work on. but I'm blessed. I must say. i've overcome some tramatic events lately but from the grace of god. i still have loving friends and family that really care about me. I lost some wieght so i look a little bit better. not exactly where i want to be but i'm learning to love me for me. I got a new hair cut. All my colored part is gone. So now my hair is a lot healthier than what it was. It's a layered cut. And I'M LOVING IT.

Things have been picking up. I'm just valuing my life cuz it could be taken away at any time.. My little brother is comeing back to the D him and my cuz. I'm exicted cuz i miss him so much but in the same sense I'm worried. but i'm putting it in the hands of god hopefully he'll make it  right and tolerable.

07 resolution::::: yeah i know i have one and the new year isnt even here yet. Who's to say it might change. But I've come the realization that the number one thing that I'm missing in my life is God/LOrd. I plan on making a deeper and stronger commitment to him. Not just by going but by dedicating my life to him  and valuing my beliefs a lot more. He has something planned for me. The only way to get it is through him. Its big step to make but i'm ready and willing with an open ming and and open heart.

I'm starting to find that inner woman that exists, withing all the sillyness, etc. Its there and its coming out. I'M LEARNING TO LOVE ME FOR ME..... now the next question is when will i stop questioning everything. love, live, and believe.

the new

ESSENSE..........................


Monday, June 19, 2006

Whats crackin xanga. This site hasnt been geting any play lately, damn iS my space really taking over like that.

Well nothings really new with me except for the following.

MY mother my be coming back to MI.

I'm trying to find my own place either by myself or with my Best friend or my girl Chi-Chi

My realtionship is the same.

My sister said i'm not moving no where but with here or my aunt (yeah okay we'll see).

I havent been stressing just praying and doing every thing the right way.

I really need to go shopping but I'm saving money for other things.

I'm in the process of looking for other job, the home health aid thing is done, so now i'm just working this bullshit ass job as a top flight security job, getting dusty and dirty as hell. But i cant really complain because money is money get it how you can get it the (legit) way .

This guy from high school still has a major crush on me. Its really funny. Everytime I see him his smiling and looking at the floor prevents him from looking at me. I guess I'm intimidating. (wink wink)

I think I'm going to start back going to church gradually, I need jesus in my life.

I had started to look from my father again but that didnt last.... occupied by other things. hopefully one day i'll find him. If not then i guess thats how good wants it.

I've been trying to talk some sense in my ex-best friend, well were cool/friend but not like we use to. but i really think she's just to damn hard headed. but hey that like most of us young people

YOUNG, DUMB AND FULL OF CUM.

SMOOCHES............


Wednesday, May 31, 2006

PICTURES AND MORE PICTURES

 

 hmm         <<Pulled back hair              <<<I guess I just felt like being silly]     <<<My sister and my nephew Omar, Keshaun, and my niece Shamari]      Aww look at my niece Kayla]     <<< My little/big brother Pierre (he's so cute)]        <<<Me and my 16 yr old brother Pierre]   <<<Aww give your sister a BIG KISS]    <<<fesha throwing it up]                   <<< fesha posing for the camera]   <<<Me and the be-be's]<<< the kids and me again]   <<< my great nephew Darius]<<<Keshaun, Raina, Reya]   <<< I have no idea what my eyes were doing   <<< You be the judge]   <<< this is my oldest niece Iris AKA TOYA]   This was a picture after my induction ceremony into National Society of Collegiate Scholars..........................................................BYE THANKS FOR VIEWING



Next 5 >>

You're a Freaky Kisser
When you kiss, you want to experience something new
A new technique, a new partner, a new piercing...
And your own personal kissing style is very unpredictable
There's no saying where your tongue or hands will go

<bgsound src="C:\Documents and Settings\Owner\Shared\LAURYN HILL UNPLUGGED - I GET OUT.mp3" loop="infinite">